Be Right Back

Hey guys...

Something dreadful has come up and I will be away for the rest of the week. I can't divulge all the details now but I will at a later stage. As I write this, I'm getting ready to leave town in 29 minutes. It's going to be a long journey through the night. I must say, this 9/11 weekend has been one I won't forget for a long time.

It's a mixture of both good and bad. My cousin had a brand new child on Friday! So it's safe to say I have a brand new niece! It's his first girl child and she has three older brothers. All children are named after family; and this one is named after my aunt, her grandmother. I know some of you are going to say... but it's not your niece and blah blah blah... Well when you are African like I am, then your cousin's children are as good as your sibling's children. Your mother's aunt is as good as your own grandmother... So... you find that African children have a multitude of grandparent, aunts, cousins, nephews and nieces... Sometimes the lines are blurred! And everyone becomes a brother or a sister... That was the one good thing that happened this weekend.

We also had my cousin's funeral. I mention him in the post just before this one. It was such a huge funeral. I've never met so much family in one go. I can't even quantify it for you. I don't think I'll ever meet all my family in this life time. The service was great and I am glad that I had a cousin like Mandilakhe. We were just a few months apart and we did almost everthing together when we were knee high. He was my hero actually... lol... hahahahahahaha.... yeah! He didn't really do anything heroic but he knew karate and that was enough for me.

Someone close to me fell ill over the weekend and has been admitted to hospital. That is the reason of my pending absence. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to speak about it... Since a lot of people don't know yet; and of course it's not my story. I'm a sharing person and that makes me feel good. That is the reson why I started this blog. I wanted to speak the crap out of my life. I also understand that some people like a certain measure of privacy...

Guys let me be off... I'll be back soon.

Love you all :)

Long Absense

Hello guys...

I've been gone for a while hey! phew... sorry about that. I picked up a really bad flu virus from this girl I know and it had it's way with me for a few weeks... I took some time off work and went home to get some rest...

I figured I really needed some rest... life is hard when you hate your job! okay... maybe hate is a strong word... but I really really dislike it... I hope that is diplomatic enough. I try to focus on good things... okay... maybe good things is also not the right word.... I focus on what I can get out of this job... I have to psych myself up daily just to see the pay off... Mainly because I have to convince myself that the pay off really is a pay off.

Some of the things I've considered is a good reference... This is my first real job ever so I desparately need a good reference... unless I go off and become my own boss... and I've thought about that numerous times. I think I spend most of my time cooking up business ideas. I keep an "ideas journal" just for that... It used to be a "dates journal"... but that is a whole other post... it should suffice to say that I'm going green and recycling... btw I recycle gifts too... except for shoes and handbags...

The other pay offs I guess are for my own personal benefit... you know, character building stuff... Hanging in when things are bad and it seems too hard to carry on; saying nothing to the mean girls when all you want to do is dish up a warm serving of a b!&#h slap; going on strike and forfeiting a whole week's pay becuase the employers is negotiating in bad faith and paying you peanuts; surviving office politics and all sort of nonsense.... Bitter-sweet things... It's as Azania Ndoro said: "Maintain your relationships. They won't necessarily pay off immediately, but working well with people is critical, no matter what you do."

Anyway... One thins is for sure... I'm destined for big, great, elaborate and amazing things... I make my own pay offs; my own destiny. I am the author of my life [can't remember who said that] and I choose to love my life no matter how hard it is...